Every
time I start getting to a place of freedom, of really getting it, it seems like
Satan steps up his game.
Though
I often fall to it, typically fall to it, am tempted to revert to me fighting
for control, it is also encouraging.
If
Satan wasn’t worried, he’d leave me alone.
If
my marriage wasn’t a threat, it wouldn’t be so attacked.
If
my husband wasn’t going to DESTROY the works of darkness, he wouldn’t be
struggling so much spiritually.
Satan
is furious about us.
He
is terrified of us.
I
don’t know why, exactly, but he is.
He
knows something we don’t know, sees something we don’t yet see.
And
it is not something he likes. At all.
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From
the very day we met, he set himself against us.
But
God is for us.
God
orchestrated us from before we were born.
He
led us together.
And
he, too, knows something we don’t know. He sees something we don’t yet see.
And
he LOVES it.
God
is FOR my husband. God is for his good, his purpose, his freedom, his abundant
life. Everything I want for him, God wants infinitely more. And not only does
he want it, he is actually able to do it.
“Those
who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.”
My
tears will not be wasted. The pain will not be left unredeemed.
I
am sowing right now, in tears, in struggle, in heartache.
But
I will reap.
I
will reap.
With
songs of joy.
Though
at the moment, we are in a fire, we will
come through it.
We
will be refined. We will be purified.
Jesus
will be able to see his face reflected in us.
You
don’t even know how hopeless a lot of this looks. How irredeemable so much of
it seems. My husband has been through awful things. Things I can’t imagine.
Things I can’t relate to.
But
with Jesus. there is full redemption.
He
himself will do it.
And
I will see it, if I will just wait on him.
“Out
of the depths I cry to you, O Lord;
O
Lord, hear my voice.
Let
your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy.
If
you, O Lord, kept a record of sins,
O
Lord, who could stand?
But
with you there is forgiveness;
therefore
you are feared.
I
wait for the Lord, my soul waits,
and
in his word I put my hope.
My
soul waits for the Lord
more
than watchmen wait for the morning,
more
than watchmen wait for the morning.
O
Israel, put your hope in the Lord,
for
with the Lord is unfailing love
and
with him is full redemption.
He
himself will redeem Israel from all their sins.”
–
Psalm 130
amen and amen!
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